Day 106; The beginning of a long list of things I am asking forgiveness for:

For seeing all the bad parts of you and walking away.
For not allowing myself to grieve over what was lost.
For sweeping everything under the rug hoping it all goes away. But they never did.
For playing with fire and not expecting to get burned.
For believing in people's words even when it didn't match their actions.
For during the lowest points, I'd only see all the bad and ugly and start to hate myself.
For the wrong things I believed in.
Fir the person I used to be. An escapist. Pretentious, prideful.

It takes so much work to be a human. Some days I wake up and I can't believe we have to go on and on.